In my ongoing struggle to kick RA's ass, I have many ups and downs. It's not easy for me to work unlimited OT at work, to workout or ride, but it is important for me to push myself so I don't feel more even more closed in by the disease. Mental perception is huge in dealing with this disease. In May of this year I took the KTM to the woods to ride some single track trail. I was feeling unusually good and I really miss riding the tight, technical, nasty stuff. I started off easy and felt good so I kept twisting the throttle more and more and soon was reliving the old days. In my head, I felt as fast as I ever was while racing ... in reality you could have used a sun dial and a calendar to time me... but I was having the time of my life for a few minutes that day. These moments are important for our survival and to help keep us grounded for our bad days. I have my days where I hurt so bad that I will just kick back and watch a movie or some low key activity such as watching the back of my eyelids ... after living with this for 9 years, I have learned to pick and choose my battles for pushing myself.
I always take my MTX on Sunday and most of the time just kick back enjoying the day with family. This past Sunday I was forced to work and immediately remembered how big of a toll the chemo puts on us. Instead of laying around on the couch or going out to eat, I was climbing stairs on the press, moving print decks (1 ton each) and down on my hands and knees splicing paper. It was the roughest day I had been through at work in a while and, right or wrong, I am blaming the chemo. Monday was much easier on me at work.
I always take my MTX on Sunday and most of the time just kick back enjoying the day with family. This past Sunday I was forced to work and immediately remembered how big of a toll the chemo puts on us. Instead of laying around on the couch or going out to eat, I was climbing stairs on the press, moving print decks (1 ton each) and down on my hands and knees splicing paper. It was the roughest day I had been through at work in a while and, right or wrong, I am blaming the chemo. Monday was much easier on me at work.
I am currently six days away from having some days off and feel like a kid waiting on the last day of school. I have several rides I want to do and by having 3 or 4 days off every week (with the new schedule), starting next week, means I can do them without burning vacation days. I missed the Colorado trip this year (thanks RA) but Randall and I are going to ride the Mississippi Hill Country loop of the Trans-America Trail this fall and possibly running out to northern New Mexico to ride a couple of days. I also have 3 bridge rides planned, one of them being at least a two or three day ride. I should have some good photos soon to post here.
Hope everyone is doing well and ready to get out and enjoy fall, my favorite season.
Hope everyone is doing well and ready to get out and enjoy fall, my favorite season.









