I began my training as a human pain magnet early in life. It seems that I have always been a "learn by fail" kind of guy. When I was about 3 my dad was changing oil in the lawn mower and had just shut it off to drain the oil when I walked up. He warned me not to touch the muffler ... so began my life long journey with pain. Between being a rowdy boy as a youngster, playing football, baseball and racing motorcycles, I have experienced my share of pain. Broke my front tooth off playing football, stuck a knife in the side of my hand and the tip came out in the palm of my hand, have endured 3 concussions, 14 broken bones along with a ton of stitches. I admit I have done my share (and probably 3 or 4 others) of stupid stuff while gaining my vast expertise in the world of pain, but none of us asked to live with RA, diabetes, fibro or any other chronic condition.
While this seems like it would have prepared me somewhat for living with a chronic disease later in life, it pales in comparison. These did inflict great pain temporarily, but living with a chronic condition is a full on 24/7 event. While my pain level is certainly lower than most broken bones, I get little to no relief ... EVER. There are times now that I feel the same as when my shoulder was separated, or suddenly I get that sick feeling in the pit of my stomach when you move with a healing broken bone and you can feel it separating apart a little bit. It is like comparing living through a tornado (broken bone) to a hurricane (chronic disease). We live on the edge of tornado alley and are used to them coming and going quickly. We were in a cat 1 hurricane while on vacation in Florida in 2000. We thought living with tornadoes, a hurricane wouldn't be that big of a deal, but the winds and rain are constant for hours and hours, it eventually starts wearing you down. After so long you just want it to stop ... sound familiar?
I was going through my closet this spring, throwing stuff out, and ran across a folder with xrays of some of my broken bones. Why I still had them I don't know, but I immediately thought of the movie Road House. lol