I received a call from one of my best friends two nights ago. His wife is just starting her journey with Humira. This got me started thinking back to when I was diagnosed eight years ago. There are a wide range of emotions when dealt the blow that you will live your life out with a chronic disease. Acceptance is perhaps the most difficult but the most important to overcome. With acceptance, you not only live better "with" your disease, but you also lose the hopelessness, feeling of unfairness and denial of the disease. You actually put yourself back in control.
Once that is accomplished, that isn't to say that you still won't have moments of anger or frustration, those are to be expected, but you will be much better off once you can.
Acceptance didn't come quickly or easy for me. I don't imagine that I'll ever be pain free again, I just don't think much about that anymore. I simply take life one day at a time now and be thankful for what I can still do.
My visit with my rheumatologist went well this week. It took me a little longer than most patients to feel the full effects of Humira. I am back to working out with weights consistently and walking everyday again. That in its self will make you feel better. I am also continuing on my nightshade experiment. Overall, I feel about as good as I have felt since being diagnosed.