Saturday, July 4, 2009

I'm OK ... most days

I have been feeling better since the weather has warmed up and dried out. In fact I felt good enough that I have been working quite a bit of OT at work over the last month. Two weeks ago I put in 72 hours and this week I will have 60 hours, not pain free by any means, but still not bad. I work with people who are healthy that complain about how they feel when working these kind of hours and I am asked frequently, "how do you do it?"

Bottom line for me is it's all in my mental conditioning. If I allow the pain inside my head, I am defeated for the day. If I block it out and go on with my normal work day, I can do most anything that a normal person can do at work ... that is for the first 8-9 hours. The problem is that I work 12 hour shifts but if I can make it that far, I can survive hurting for 2-4 hours of the shift, go home, crawl in bed and sleep all day and feel pretty good when I get up.

My normal work routine consists of getting up, playing with "little dog", workout for 30 minutes (weights and cardio), shower, fix my lunch and head off to work at 7 pm. If I feel good enough by my first break, I walk outside for 20 minutes. My second break I eat lunch and my third break I will usually eat some fruit and just try to stay awake. Get off work at 7 am, go home and eat a snack then crawl in bed.

Most days when I crawl in bed I'm hurting a 3 to a 5 (on a scale of 1 - 10), but I can smile as I am getting into bed. I have defeated RA one more day, I didn't let it get the best of me today.


BattyBeader said...

You explain yourself so well!

Mental conditioning says it all. I wish I had some hours of racing and riding bumpy roads under my belt, or in my boots to have 1/2 of the conditioning you have.

Kudos to you!

tharr said...

Thanks for the compliment.

Some days my mental conditioning works, but I still have those special days that no amount of it is going to help. Fortunately, those aren't an everyday thing yet.